weird feelings







Unexplainable.

It's one of the days,,, not the usual. It rarely happens, but when those feelings came, it suffocates me. I can't think of happiness. Life suddenly is all shitty. It made me realize my life. Why is it like this?Like.... Why can't I get happiness? If people around me can be happy, why can't I?

It's suffocating. I need a walk. I need to calm the fuck down. I need to breathe the air, to look at the sky, telling myself that it's gonna be okay. This feeling is temporary.



Do you know, out of every fight I've ever encountered in my whole life, the fight with myself is the hardest. It came and go anytime it wants. Well, I know what's triggering it to come out, but I don't know how to stop it. I wish I don't have feelings.








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