Hello, you.

 Hello.

I'm currently obsessed with this song:


It's been two years. I thought I have moved on.. but I haven't. I still do like you. I wonder why. This was supposed to be a little stupid crush and I should get over with after a while. But....tah la.

It's stupid how everytime things gets hard I secretly wish for you to be here. Although your presence alone would be sufficient, I don't really mind if you come with an ice cream.

I missed the late night chats about random stuffs. I miss telling you stuffs that you probably don't care but you read and reply to it anyways. Like that one time a cat out of nowhere came into my room and I sent you a picture of it. Or remember that one time I had a hard time with mock trial and I rant about it to you. That must be pretty annoying huh. I'm sorry, that time I was probably lonely and maybe because I like you that's why I told you that random things. Or maybe I still do.


But anyways. How are you? I've been wondering about you for some time now. What are you doing now? Are you mentally stable? How's life been treating you? Do you still sleep late like you always do? Are you preparing to confess to your crush? Haha

But I didn't contact you. Probably because it would be weird to ask that. Right? And I'm scared you might ignore me again. Or I'm scared that if I do contact you might notice that I have a little crush on you. Well we don't want that to happen don't we? hahah


Not that you care but I'm doing so-so. I can't say that everything's well but yeahh I'm surviving I guess. Gosh graduating really is scary. Honestly, everyday I would think about what to do after graduating. Should I randomly work anywhere or should I go for chambering? Are there any law firms out there wants me though? Can I survive? How do I make sure I don't end up being a disappointment?

I gotta work hard to provide for my family after this. I need to pay my PTPTN. Adulting is scary and tiring. For real.


I still have another 1 short semester though. Guess I'm going to chill for now and get super panic later during my short semester :'D


Oh and I've changed mahallah. I hate it here because my room is at the 4th floor and my roommates are super loud and they are strangers I don't know them so it's a bit suffocating. I came to realise that I really do hate meeting new people. It's so awkward. It feels like they are judging me 24/7 even when they actually don't. And I hate the door knob here, it's so hard to open the door. Honestly things aren't going that well but I'm trying my best to not care and let it pass :) (This! I miss telling you random things like this or maybe I miss having someone to talk about my daily life, or complaints. I don't know man, I miss having someone to converse with on daily basis)


I have only 1 paper left before I'm done with this semester. And yes, I'm writing a blog post instead of studying because honestly I'd do anything but studying now. I don't know why.... oh and I have another 2 commissions to do,,, and another 1 tub of chocotub left to sell.


Oh back to the topic, I think the reason that I still like you is because I haven't find anyone to replace you, yet. I mean, with online classes and assignment piling up, I don't even have the time to flirt. Not that I have anyone I can flirt with though.... I'm not just single now, I'm super single. My whatsapp is clean from any men. Idk whether I should be proud of this or I should be worried that I'm reaching 23 and I've been single since birth. Am I really going to die alone?

But most of my friends are single so I think this is completely normal..... 


Another important thing you should know, I'm currently watching the Bigbang Theory. Can't stop watching it nuh uh.


Okay that is all the updates from me to you but it never reaches you. Lol. I hope you're doing fine. bye.

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