SYUSSHI KAMAL

 Assalamualaikum. Hi. Dalam banyak-banyak elemen positif yang aku perlukan dalam hidup, semestinya bukan COVID-19 Positif yang aku mahukan. Honestly. Aku balik rumah hari Ahad, sebab aku ada dermatologist appointment hari Isnin. Sepatutnya aku tak boleh balik, dengan kes COVID yang naik teruk berserta dengan lockdown kat Selangor dan Kuala Lumpur. Kitorang Uni students yang berada di kampus, stuck dalam Uni. Walaupun kau dah habis paper. Walaupun kau final year student dan dah takde kaitan dah dengan Uni kau, kau kena stay. Unless, kau ada appointment hospital or any reasons yang valid untuk balik. Aku one of those yang balik with reason. Isnin aku pergi appointment. Jalani hidup macam biasa, not knowing that life would be like hell 24 hours later. Haha. Selasa aku dapat call dari nombor yang aku tak kenal. Klinik UIA call aku. "Salam, sister Syuhada? Awak contact rapat dengan sorang pesakit positif ya. Boleh tahu sekarang awak kat mana?". Gila tak panik? Aku dah balik rumah....

 Hello. I'm currently obsessed with this song: It's been two years. I thought I have moved on.. but I haven't. I still do like you. I wonder why. This was supposed to be a little stupid crush and I should get over with after a while. But....tah la. It's stupid how everytime things gets hard I secretly wish for you to be here. Although your presence alone would be sufficient, I don't really mind if you come with an ice cream. I missed the late night chats about random stuffs. I miss telling you stuffs that you probably don't care but you read and reply to it anyways. Like that one time a cat out of nowhere came into my room and I sent you a picture of it. Or remember that one time I had a hard time with mock trial and I rant about it to you. That must be pretty annoying huh. I'm sorry, that time I was probably lonely and maybe because I like you that's why I told you that random things. Or maybe I still do . But anyways. How are you? I've been wonder...

I am legit the most easily influenced woman ever. Like, for real. Even myself realise that but I can't help it. But anyways- the main reason for today's post is....... I have been watching Evelyn Ha's vlog on YouTube lately. The interactions between her and her two sisters menghiburkan aku. Their sassiness, and sometimes dumb things they did are really something. Somehow, it makes me want to actually spend time with my sisters and do shits like that too hahahha Back then before entering Uni, I don't really spend my time with my sisters (or family) that much. I don't know, back then I can't see the point of spending my precious time with them. I used to enjoy doing my own things at home, not talking to my family because apparently my siblings doesn't know how to speak nicely to each other. There are always insults in between the sentences every time we interact.I was (or maybe still are) the most sensitive person in the family. And I am known as the most hot-...

I'm gonna make a confession here. For myself. So that a few years later when I read this post back, I would realise how stupid I was for falling in love with a friend, for loving someone a little too much that sometimes my heart ache when I think about him. Dear you, the cutest human being I've ever met in my 22 years old life. The one who used to make me smile all day long just from a single "hey" text. I hate you. I hate how every time things get hard I wish you would appear out of nowhere. I hate how your random stupid texts always madee my mood a looooot better. I hate how it always felt like a freaking canon in D is playing when we texts. I hate how your presence never fails to make my heart beats a little bit faster that I can't be myself when you're around because I wanna look good in front of you and I want your attention (this is so stupid btw) I hate the fact that your smile is so breathtaking even when you're not that handsome (this is my opi...

 Hi. It's been a while. Sekarang aku tengah dalam examination week. Aku ada paper jam 9 pagi esok, tapi macam biasa lah. Masa kena study adalah masa aku paling ada rajin nak membebel dekat blog idek why. But anyways, untuk yang tak minat kpop dan tak suka fangirl boleh stop baca sebab legit I am going to pour my heart here,,, sebab it's been 4 days dan aku masih lagi menangis randomly ya. Dah lama aku tak sedih sampai macam ni sekali.. Honestly, aku sedar je yang aku ni mentally unstable. Cam, I'm bad at controlling my emotion. Aku tahu. Ada masa aku happy aku happy sangat, bila sedih jadi sedih betul.. Tapi aku takde lah selalu sangat sedih, cam dia macam bermusim. I guess? Biasanya satu malam je sedih esok tu dah okay. Dan dia ikut situation kot... Cam last year ada satu minggu tu aku memang sedih gila, cam aku tak tahu doh apa problem aku. Masatu aku tengah kelas criminal kot, pastu aku nangis  tanpa sebab. Or ada benda trigger aku... entah lah. Tapi sumpah aku cam sedih...

Assalamualaikum. Hai. Aku baru tengok movie 'A Whisker Away' . Aku nak diskus pasal movie ni, ALSO NAK RECOMMEND KORANG UNTUK TENGOK SEBAB HELLO KALAU SYU RECOMMEND MESTILAH CERITA TU BEST. Aku lately ni jarang nak jumpa anime yang menarik hati aku untuk teruskan tengok tapi cerita ni???? What the actual hell????? Best doh????? Cam, banyak ko boleh belajar doh daripada movie ni????? HAHA OVERRR KAN! Before that, aku bubuh je SPOILER ALERT!!  just in case aku terbagi spoiler kat korang yang belum tengok hahaha. Kalau korang tak kisah dengan spoiler, then boleh teruskan membaca. A Whisker Away ni pasal Miyo Sasaki or known as Muge, a student. An only child. Dia from a broken family (kind of?). Parents bercerai, dia ada mak tiri. Walaupun mak tiri dia baik je, but somehow benda tu affect juga life dia dekat sekolah. Honestly, aku tak tahu if it is normal untuk orang yang parents dia bercerai dipalau dekat sekolah, but that happen to her. As a child, untuk experience benda macam tu...